It’s been a couple weeks since I last posted in this blog and a lot of wedding related things have happened.
- We booked a photographer, only to not make our deposit in time so we lost said photographer.
- Said photographer gave us a list of recommended photographers-one of which we ended up booking, deposit, contract and all.
- We got our hotel block booked at this place that is a half hour away from our venue but like right near the ocean. I love New Jersey and I mean that with my whole heart.
- I scheduled a couple dress appointments WHILE MY BEST FRIEND IS IN TOWN.
- The Orange Warriors had an estate sale fund raiser, and we got our center piece mason jars from there.
- I had a conversation with my step mom about the honeymoon which was really a lot of me saying “I don’t know” and talking about monies.
- I joined a bunch of wedding related Facebook groups only to be even more overwhelmed than I had been originally.
- I cried a lot.
I cried because I have never even THOUGHT about wedding day programs for guests. I cried because I don’t own enough white to determine whether or not I look good in it. I cried because how I was always a person that got stressed out over silly little things and this wedding is a play ground for that kind of relentless mental tomfoolery.
So I took a time out. I reckon that doing this the first few minutes into the game doesn’t look good on my part but I needed it, and gone are the days when I’m not honest with myself about what my personal needs are.
I’m back though, and that’s what’s important-tears and all.